I Don't Want To Be "A Fake it 'Til You Make It" Kind of Girl

I want to have a talk with the person that coined the term, “Fake it ‘til you make it.”

 

We may do a pretty good job at covering up our messes and putting only our best moments on social media, but at the core, there's no amount of likes on social media that can heal the truth that lies beneath “fake it ‘til you make it.”

 

First, where are we making it? And how great is it going to be when we get there if we faked our way? I don’t know about you, but I believe in victory stories -- I love to share how my God got me there. How He pulled me through the valleys. 

How He showed up for me.

 

I’ve tried the “fake it ‘til you make it” kind of world and the result -- I’m headed straight for failure without my God. There is nothing in this life that I can “actually” handle on my own  and the pure thought of having to be my own savior is not only exhausting, but sort of silly.

 

I am a determined person. But even when I push full throttle, I can't rise up alone. I can't do it without His strength.

 

I thought that getting older meant I would soon figure it out, but I’ve learned that no one ever really figures it out. We are all walking around aimlessly trying to do this life thing. And friends, there will NEVER be a day when we don’t need our God. It doesn’t matter how old we get or how “good” we think we get at the faking thing. 

Faking it is exhausting. 

I have no interest in making it to wherever there is if I did it all on my own. Besides, I won't have the strength.

I think I have lived a lot of my 22 years of life being that kind of girl. Putting on a face as to not show the world what demons I am really fighting. Putting up a front so that it looks like I’ve got it all together. 

 

But I don't want to be a “fake it ‘til you make it” kind of girl.

 

“ I want to recklessly abandon that kind of life. The kind of life where I feel as though I’ve got to prove something to someone. The kind of life where I’m judged by how well I can show up on the internet rather than judged by how well my God is showing up for ME. ”

I’m working hard to change my mentality that I’ve got to rise up all on my own when I get knocked down. I’m working hard to challenge the social media trap that has led us to believe that we have to trick the world into thinking that we’ve got it all together.

 

I don't want to be a 'fake it 'til you make it" kind of girl. I want to be a "Jesus save me because I can't do this on my own" kind of girl.

 

Because when He’s in it, I will not fail. It might take awhile, and it might be hard or not what I expected, but He will take care of me.

“There’s only one thing, one hope, that can truly define the boundaries, shortfalls, and victories of this life and that’s Christ. ”

 

I'm not interested in making it anywhere in this life without Him. On every journey through every day I want Him there. And every time I finally get to that place I am going, I imagine we will sit down, sip on a glass of sweet tea, and joke about how much more fulfilling the journey was because I stopped pretending and started trusting He would carry me. 

And after that sweet tea, I'll share my victory story

about how He got me there. 

 

And it will be raw.

And real.

And honest.

And my prayer is that you, too, will have the courage to stop faking it. To stop hiding. To stop being someone you are not. To bring Him with you wherever you go. To hide behind His goodness, His mercies, His love rather than anything else in this life.  

With love,

Brittany Jeanine